One Month Left of my Freshman Year

14 Apr

One year ago today my life consuming senior project was finished as was basically all my other classes. My biggest concern was who was picking up the kegs for the huge party were throwing that weekend. Come to think of it I was on jello shot duty.

I was slacking off in the job app department but I was lucky enough to get two legit interviews under my belt before I walked the stage … so I guess I wasn’t being a total slacker.

What else was I worried about? Ah yes, having a base tan before our senior trip to Daytona Beach. Because my skin is/was basically see through, a base tan was 100% necessary. (Note: I’ve stopped tanning because of the extremely harmful side effects.)

Somewhere in the back of my mind was the lingering thought that I did have to face reality soon, but I wasn’t losing sleep over it. In one month, a year ago today, my life was starting. I’d have to start paying my own bills, living on my own and dodging those hits life throws at you.

Part of me misses college so much it hurts. I miss it for the same reasons everyone misses it. The carefree life style of living with your best friends, drinking till the sunrise, laughing till it hurts and going to class with the confidence that I could do anything once I left.

I’ve grown up a lot in the past year, but the thing I notice most, is now much more I will this year. You’re whole life you’re surrounded by people. Family, friends, teammates, coaches, friends of friends, etc, who know you, love you, look out for you. I’m an only child raised by my single mom and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Being an only child has taught me independence, confidence and the ability to talk to anyone; traits I still exude and will for the rest of my life.

I graduated high school and went to college to meet a new genre of people. Not just friends, the staff and professors at Mount Saint Mary College who went above and beyond with support and guidance to make it home. That may sound cheesy, especially to fellow MSMC alum or current students, but it’s true, or at least in my case it is.

Now it’s me. Just me. In the biggest city in the world, just trying to make it. I still have all the people mentioned above in my life, but not a 5 minute walk or drive away. They’re not here with me, listening to my daily musings, rants and gossip. They’re not here to console me when I’ve had a day from hell or make me laugh till I cry or cry till I laugh for that matter.

It’s just me and now it’s setting in. I’m at the forefront of what your 20s are all about; figuring yourself out. Figuring out what you want in life, who you will become, what your mark will be. I know I may sound corny and cliche and clearly I’m the billionth person to realize this, but you don’t “get” it until your experiencing it. On paper, I’m living the life I wanted. In New York, with a full time communications job. Is it what I thought it would be? In some ways yes, in more ways no. But I know how much I’m going to grow and change for the better living this life.

I’m excited for what’s to come and I can only hope you’ll stay as I share it.

As for this blog … I’m thinking of adding a “Part Deux”  until I figure out what’s next. Sophomore Year of Life doesn’t quite have the same ring to it.

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4 Responses to “One Month Left of my Freshman Year”

  1. Brenna [fabuleuxdestin] April 15, 2011 at 3:09 am #

    Ah! This post has made me realize it’s almost been a year as well 🙂 Reflection time for sure. Congrats on your success!

    • Shannon April 15, 2011 at 9:33 am #

      Thanks! You as well. Crazy how time flies.

  2. Tasha @ Voracious April 15, 2011 at 12:01 pm #

    Awwww you brought back so many memories. It’s really a fun and scary and crazy and exciting time of life, isn’t it? Enjoy.

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